Getting ridiculous, I’m finding it hard to sleep and when I do sleep I keep having these dreams, sometimes odd and weird sometimes just plain out there or terrifying, I can’t get her out of my head which is stupid because she’s just a memory and I doubt I’ll ever find her and even if I do she probably wont remember me or want to talk to me. Yet a part of me the part that keeps me awake sometimes keeps convincing me not to give up to keep trying.

Yet I also feel like I’m losing my grasp on reality, nothing really seems real these days. Things that happened recently feel like they happened Months or Years ago and things that happened a while ago seem like centuries or more, sometimes I wonder if they really happened at all. What if this person I remember is nothing but a memory I dreamed up? Although if it was would my Parent’s know who I’m on about?

Bleh I dun know anymore everything’s weird, job’s going quite well though and I’m learning to get along with my co-workers too which is awesome I guess.

Sorry for ranting, this seems to be my place of rants now.